Peanut Butter Jelly Time

Feels sad, watches this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8MDNFaGfT4
Feels better.

Now I just have to finish my final two provera pills and wait on auntie flow. Still feeling positive. And excited about starting clomid. I have always wanted twins.

Be Positive.... in more ways than one

So today I saw a different doctor than usual today. He was super straightforward which I liked. He said that it is likely I've suffered an early miscarriage. Fantastic. I had a blood test today to confirm. And will know for sure tomorrow.

He wrote me a prescription for provera to start my period should the test be negative.
And a prescription for clomid.
And a prescription for prometrium to help with my short luteal phase. This one got me. He looked at my charts, appreciated that I'd been doing them and said that my luteal phase is short and that the clomid and prometrium will fix that. My normal doctor does not believe in LPD. And said I was fine. What what what???
So then I run into my normal doctor on the way out and he was like.... " I think this means you are pregnant. Lets keep your hopes up until you get the blood work back. It is best to be positive"

I am just numb right now. I'll just be waiting for my blood test results.

calm once more

O.K. so I've made a doctors appointment for tomorrow afternoon. I feel so much better.
My guess is that I got a false positive OPK and ovulated late and that is why I'm off and my period is not really late. I ovulated super late the month prior so it could have just happened again. That is pretty sucky, but I can deal with that. No use speculating though. I'll find out soon. But this is a good example on why it is good to chart. I gave it up last and now I'm clueless. If I had been charting I'd no for sure whether or not I really ovulated.

Not Pregnant

I was shaking this morning when i read it. I can't believe it. What is wrong with me? Urggg. I'm going to call my doctor this morning.

Crazy Weird

So after I got a negative on Thursday I figured I was out. Then my period didn't start. I just had some spotting. So we went away for the long holiday weekend and I figured I would just enjoy myself and not think about pregnancy, babies, tests, etc.
Well I had more spotting late on Friday night and freaked out that I didn't have any pads or tampons (all but one emergency one I keep in my purse), and would have to get some supplies early the next day when stores opened up. Well the next morning no period. The whole day I was fine. Just a little spotting. And my nipples really hurt. Yesterday I just had a hint of spotting. More sore boobs. And today no spotting. So now I'm back at home. I'm 18DPO. I'm testing with my one and only digital I've been saving for months. If I get a negative that means something is wrong and I have to go to my doctor to start my period or whatever. Or........... I get a positive.

Drat!

So my little cheapy test gave me a negative. And I just noticed spotting. Swell.

We are going on a ski trip with friends this weekend so at least I'll be able to drink. And I guess I'll have to schedule my HSG now. I'm a little nervous about that. But excited about the increased fertility that comes with it. So on to the next cycle.

Takes Deep Breath

I may actually be testing in the morning. I have a cheapy test that I got for free for buying pre. So I'll be using that tomorrow morning if my period doesn't show up. I haven't been charting so I do not know for sure when I ovulated. But I had my positive OPK on Jan 29th. So if I ovulated 2 days after that it would have been on January 31st. Meaning tomorrow I'll be 14 DPO. A good day to test if I do say so myself.

If I run I can make it to Pilates. I think I will. I need to chill tonight and think of something besides this.