Sunday, November 16, 2008

Positive Mental Attitude

I'm feeling so positive.  Really happy.  Happier than I've been in a long time.  I think it started when got my IVF calendar last week.  Looking at the calendar and talking to my nurse coordinator made me feel like this is really happening.  Like a baby is just within my reach now.  No stupid temperature charts or OPKs and wondering what is going on with my body.  It is all carefully controlled.  Just the way I like it.....did I mention that I'm a type A personality.
And I'm so excited.  Although I'm nervous as hell about giving myself the injections that will allow for all this control.  I'm supposed to go in for my PreLupron sonogram on Thursday morning and then beging lupron that night if all is well.  My dad is so cute.  He keeps asking me every time he calls if I've started the injectibles yet.  He is as nervous as I am.  My mom thinks I'm being a big baby.  She is diabetic and is no stranger to the needle.  I know it will be fine.  I just....ugh, I don't even like it when other people have to give me a shot.  O.K. enough with the pity party.  This stuff is gonna get me where I need to be so I'm just going to suck it up and shut up about it.  

We also paid for everything this week.  K and I finally decided to do a a multicycle treatment/shared risk plan.  The one we chose pays for 2 fresh and 2 frozen cycles.  Although we feel really good about our chances of getting pregnant on the first go around, we want to be prepared to keep trying if need be.  So we figured paying for it up front would make our lives easier by taking one thing off the plate.   The tricky thing was I had to fax our application for the program from work on Thursday.  I was so scared that I would drop one of the papers and expose myself.  I don't plan on sharing the fact that I'm undergoing IVF with anyone other than you guys and our families.  Even our closest friends will not know right now.  Anyway, I hate sending faxes.  I almost always accidently dial the phone number instead of the fax number.  I was really careful to dial the right number this time because the last thing I wanted was "you've reached integramed IVF program" played loudly for the entire office to hear.  After carefully sending the fax, I hovered by the machine a little bit to make sure it all went through and that I didn't leave any paperwork behind.  This would have been a lot easier if the program just accepted pdfs.   Well at least now it is all taken care of, and now we can just concentrate on the treatments.

My favorite part of the treatment is acupuncture.  I am supposed to give my acupuncturist  a copy of my calendar so that she can schedule me for extra sessions during certain points of the treatment.  She is also going to change up her treatments to suit the different stages I'll be going through.  For instance, she will do some needles on my back at a particular point.  I'm looking forward to all of  this.  I really like her and think she knows what she is doing.  And I really like her attention to detail.  Acupuncture is pricey so it is nice when you can feel so well cared for.  

9 comments:

militarywifealways said...

I signed up for accupuncture too. I am only going for one prior to ER/ET then prior to ER and after ET. The office also will administer two dates in which she said are to maintain the embies and make them feel comfy and settle in :0)My 1st appt is Dec 1.

'Murgdan' said...

Way to go on getting started...and for getting all the $$ stuff out of the way!

April said...

yea calendar!!!

so glad to hear you have a good acupuncturist, too. Mine was a little weird. She did the EXACT same thing throughout the entire cycle. No variations. Nothing. It was really weird. I just felt like I was just another patient for her.....

Michelle said...

YAY for starting IVF. I am sending you nothing but good thoughts.

Dora said...

Don't worry about the shots. Subcutaneous injections are nothing like the shots one gets at the dr's office. Tiny, thin needle. Easy.

kate said...

Good luck! I hope all this planning and treatments lead to a baby for you soon.

Andrea said...

I think you'll be with the injections. I just did my first round a week ago. I had a little brusing, but no real pain during injections. I am so excited for you!! You could be PG in a matter of weeks!!!!

alicia said...

yuppee! i am so glad you are soo happy!! you can do the shot thing, I know you can!! it will be scary, but it is sooooo worth it! yuppeee I am thrilled for you :)

existere said...

Hey, just wanted to wish you a very big good luck. I'm midway through my first IVF cycle and the injections aren't anything like I expected. In a gross way, I look forward to them!!