Friday, January 2, 2009

Still Pregnant.

As of right now.  My betas are still doubling.  I can see two lines on the HPTs I bought.  But the beta numbers are too low for any kind of comfort.  My RE eluded to the fact that this pregnancy is not viable.  This morning I go in for a 4th and final beta.  I don't know what they are hoping for.  The numbers haven't jumped off the page yet so why bother testing one more time.

The fact of the matter is that I've already moved on.  My husband is surprised at how well I'm taking it.  I think my positive attitude stems from two things.  1.  I was able to get pregnant.  My uterus is not the barren wasteland it once was.  This embryo just isn't the one.  It just isn't strong enough.  But..... 2.  We have 7 frozen embryos.  7 waiting to be given the chance to become our children.  Those embryos made it to a day 6 freeze so we know they are strong.  If they can survive the thaw process then we are good to go.  And we are going to have 3 put in.  So as long as I can start the FET right away I have no worries.  I've been doing this for too long to get upset over this.  My body is ready.  My embies are waiting.  It will be o.k.

10 comments:

~M~ said...

I'm so sorry things aren't looking the way they should be. I'm going to continue to hold out hope for you with this pregnancy, though, ok? You'll be in my thoughts.

April said...

Echloe, this news sucks, but you seem to be doing well. your positive attitude is an inspiration to me!

*hugs*

E_Sharp said...

I'm so sorry that embie isn't cooperating. You're quite right about all the positives that you noted though. Its just a matter of time.
And, if its OK with you, I am going to keep hoping for the best with this cycle anyway...

Mo and Will said...

Echloe,

You've got a great attitude to a stinky situation. Everything you're saying is true. Obviously you can get pregnant, and you've got a bunch of day 6 embryos just waiting for you.

Hang in there waiting for the 4th and final beta. I'm sorry this is looking like it will turn out as you were hoping. you're in my thoughts.

Mo

TTC a lil F said...

I am inspired by your strength. Still, I am praying that this will work ok.
Sending you lots of love and hugs.
Deb

Andrea said...

Man, this is so disappointing, but I'm glad you're doing okay. I'll be praying for you & your little bean!

militarywifealways said...

I so sorry that you are enduring this pain as well as your DH. I am praying for positive news today. Well you know me on positive thoughts that which does not kill you will make you stronger.

Ariella said...

I am sorry. I really wanted you to get better news. I am hopeful for you that one of those 7 will be your live baby. I am thinking of you.

Clio said...

you seem to be holding pretty well under the circumstances. But you are right, you have strong embies waiting for you, and that is a wonderful thing to keep in mind. What will be will be. courage and faith.
(hug)

Aramelle said...

I'm so sorry that the numbers aren't looking good for this pregnancy. I hope that your little embie is able to surprise all of you, including the doctor.

I'm glad that you have been able to focus on the positives while going through this. That's quite admirable, IMO.