In honor of Infertility Awareness week I finally bought my pomegranate colored thread. Infertility's common thread. This thread is like a secret handshake. Something to wear to show others that you are fighting the good fight. I've been meaning to get this for a long time but finally got around to shopping at the craft store today. So I'll be wearing my thread with pride. I hope no one thinks it is for Kabahlah!
As for communal tables. I always thought this was a good idea. For those of you who haven't experienced this, it is just sharing a table at a restaurant. You go to a restaurant, there isn't a lot of seating, but at the one large table there is room enough for two more and the people already seated there don't mind sharing. So everyone gets to sit and eat. And maybe you meet some cool new people. This is what I thought.....
This is what happened to us the other night: K and I go out Saturday night for a date and decide on this uber hip tapas restaurant. Yummy food. Yummy drinks. But of course the place was packed once we got our butts in gear to actually leave the house and go out. So when the hostess asked if we'd be o.k. with sitting at the communal table we agreed. The three women at the table seemed nice enough and were apparently on a girls night out. I thought they'd all be bitching about their boyfriends/husbands or whatever. Not the case. After they got their food they started to talk. K and I were busily looking at our menus when chick A says "It is just so hard to give up breast feeding my son because I just love the cuddling." And chick B says, "Yeah, I'm just so sad that my baby is crawling now because he isn't interested in bonding with me anymore." O.K. so not the conversation I wanted to be hearing right then. As I sat there trying to tune them out, I kept thinking about the fact that this is the conversation that my best friends are having with each other. They could all be out (without me the childless one) sharing and bonding over their kids. My best friends and I have always had so much in common. But now I just feel so left out. We are just at very different places right now. And I so desperately want to be able to share with them again.
Well hopefully soon. Soon soon soon.