Yesterday I saw my nephew over skype. He is a beautiful baby and I just wish I could cuddle him. I know I would be more emotional if I saw him in person but over the computer he just looks like a sweet little guy who needs a hug from auntie Bets. Well maybe it also helps that he is a boy. A girl would probably upset me more.
I hadn't spoken to my SIL at all since Lydia's birth/death. I think she was too scared to talk to me and I know I didn't want to talk to her. Well she was so nice. She practically begged me to just move back home so that they could take care of me. She said she hated that they were so far away during my time of need and I should be with family and had it not been for their baby they would have been here in an instant. We talked about me trying again soon and she said that it would be better for me to be there with them nearby so that if I go on bedrest then it will be more than just K to take care of me. I think she is right. Maybe we should think about this. The reality is that we've been wanted to move for sometime anyway. It is just that life has gotten in the way time and time again. So maybe. Although moving again would be really annoying. I just got everything unpacked. I promise to post some photos later. Something else to do.